Got some catching up to do.


Been a while since I updated! I even completely missed the Monday Meme so now it’s the…not…Monday Meme. Anyways. It’s a short one anyways, so might as well do it before I get into the other things that have been going on this week! The theme this week was Double Threat!

Two online screen names you’ve had:

I don’t really want to share any of my really old ones. lmao. But as far as SL goes, there’s my current name of Slut Fallen, and my original account which hasn’t even been logged into in ages, Lilysyn Gloom.

Two video games you have played:

Count all 3 Diablos as one I guess. lol. I also spent some time playing the free MMO ASDA with some friends of mine years ago. It’s nothing fancy, but I had a BLAST playing with them so it stands out in my memory.

Two things you love about SL:

Being able to SHOP and dress up as anything I might feel like. And being able to meet people from around the world that I would never have known otherwise.

Two things you’ve done in SecondLife:

Well, currently managing/co-owning/whatever Babygirls, which is by far one of the most enjoyable things I’ve done. And well, I’m an escort so…. once I got paid to have swords thrown at me. That was interesting.

Two things you still want to do in SL:

I’d like to get better at creating things. Maybe try building some more. Annnnd….. I dunno… Maybe give DJing another try one of these days. Though I wasn’t super good at it. lol.

Two things you like about your SecondLife Avatar:

This changes all the time. lol. Currently I am in love with the way my Lara Hurley skin looks on my TMP face, even after I spent months saying I would never use a mesh head. Annnnd I fucking adore having my Maitreya body.

Two of your SecondLife pet peeves:

This one came up a couple times this week. Maybe I’m just old fashioned, but people I DON’T EVEN KNOW asking about my money/DJ’s money/club finances. And I just feel like someone asking someone else about their money is incredibly rude. Also, I hate when I get alpha glitching errors on my mesh body and my tattoo/underwear layer does that disappearing act thing.

Two things you did as a noob that you’re embarrassed about:

I spent my first couple days wearing shoes without the shoe base because I didn’t know I needed to wear that too. Also I remember having to ask someone how to fly up and down because I couldn’t figure it out.

Two of your closest friends in SL:

Ell and DJ. Hands down.

Two of your most beloved things in your inventory:

I don’t think I could pick specific things. Just pictures and NCs of hilarious things that we’ve done in general.

Ok, this entry is already longer than I thought it was going to be, so just a quick overview of the other things that have happened recently. lol.

DJ decided he was going to start making shoes. And he’s been getting better with every shoe line he does. I’ve been enjoying doing the vendor pics for it, and of course testing out the shoes for him! Ell and I told him we fully support this shoe store idea of his. lol. But really, he is definitely getting better. And like I said in my last entry about him, I enjoy watching him get excited about making new things and trying out stuff. He’s always happier when he has some sort of project to work on, and I’m always willing to go along with whatever wackiness he comes up with in that respect. Me getting some awesome shoes out of it is just a bonus. xD


Mean Comments Meme


This week’s Monday Meme is about Mean Comments. You can see Strawberry Singh’s post about it HERE. Her post goes much more in depth than mine on cyber-bullying as a whole.

o1.] Have you ever been subjected to mean comments online by strangers? If not, skip to #5. 

Oh ABSOLUTELY. It’s a common occurrence. And I’m not just talking about on SL. In other online games, blogs, on different websites. It’s an almost weekly thing sometimes. In SL particularly though I get a lot of things said about me. Whether it’s because I’m an escort or just because I don’t tend to put up with much bullshit. Or because of who I’m dating. Or God knows whatever other reasons. It’s not just from men either. Women sometimes can be more cruel. There’s a million and one rumors going around about me, especially lately with Babygirls starting to get more known.

o2.] How did you respond to them?

This sort of depends on the situation and my mood. Sometimes I just ignore it. Especially if I can tell the person is just trying to get a rise out of me. Sometimes if I’m bored I’ll play along. Like if someone calls me fat I might reply with “OMG THANK YOU FOR TELLING ME I HAD NO IDEA!” or something along those lines. Like, seriously. I know I’m fat. Thanks. It’s not hurtful. lol. But if they persist and I get tired of dealing with them, there’s always the block button.

o3.] How did they make you feel?

Sometimes they’re hurtful. Especially if they come out of no where or you stumble across something when you’re already in a bad mood. Generally though IF they hurt me or insult me it lasts for a little while and then I try to shrug it off. Or laugh it off. Thankfully with Ell and Daddy I can talk to them if something bothers me and they’ll make me laugh in no time.

04.] Can you share some of the mean comments you’ve received and your thoughts on them?

There’s one that happened ages ago but it still sticks out in my memory. A guy I had a bit of a past with has been known to harass me from time to time. Sometimes creating alts in order to reach me when he was blocked. And I remember one time he IMed me out of the blue and all he said was, “Bitch. Why haven’t you killed yourself yet? Don’t you know you’re useless as shit?”  In retrospect it makes me laugh. And it didn’t even hurt me for long. But just getting that IM out of the blue was a bit like a sucker punch.

Here’s a convo from just a couple days ago, with the person’s identity hidden of course:

[00:15] HIM: bcs is impossible try search a logic part on a woman
[00:15] HIM: they only know suck dicks and fcuk like bitches
[00:16] Slut Fallen: Yeah, I’m an AMAZING dick sucker.
[00:16] HIM: ik
[00:16] HIM: u are bich
[00:16] HIM: and fat on rl
[00:16] HIM: 😉
[00:16] Slut Fallen: yep!
[00:16] Slut Fallen: If I sat on you I’d probably break your bones.
[00:16] HIM: ofc
[00:17] HIM: even be far away is can be dangerous
[00:17] HIM: u need a planert for life
[00:17] Slut Fallen: a what?

This happened because one of the girls at the club had complained that he was stalking and harassing her, so I banned him from the sim and refused to let him back in.

o5.] Have you ever ridiculed or negatively commented on someone else’s work, actions or personality with the intention to hurt them?

Yes. There have been times in my life when someone has made me angry or upset me and I wasn’t thinking clearly. I’ve said things intended to make the other person feel bad. Especially if they had made me feel bad first. I’m in no way saying that it’s excusable, I’m just saying that at the time I’ve been emotional enough to rationalize it to myself.

Then & Now

Lily Then and Now

This week’s Monday Meme from Strawberry Singh is about SL growth… Technically she used images from her first ever blog post, but I didn’t start really blogging much until I’d already been around for a bit. So, this is my first ever SL picture of myself, taken on my rezday in 2009. Compared to the most recent picture of myself that I did this previous week. Since I’d [badly] edited the first. I decided I’d use an edited one for the recent pic as well.

This definitely shows some avi progress as well as editing progress I think. lol. I don’t remember what I even used to edit the first pic. Nothing special, I’m sure. xD I think the difference between the two images is just ridiculous. Some of it is obviously due to advancements in SL as well. Obviously there’s no mesh in the first picture and in the Now pic…well There’s nothing that ISN’T mesh. lol.

When I first started using this account as my main I was in a place where I didn’t want to care about anyone again. I’d been hurt on my original account by someone that wasn’t just a part of my SL, but a part of my life as a whole. And at the time all my friends in world were “our” friends, or my clients. I took an extended break but when I started to miss SL, I decided I was just going to be a slut. Hence, Slut Fallen. I was just going to run around and fuck and get into trouble and not care about anyone, or anything. Oh how that changed. And I don’t regret it at all. I’d be lost without Ell and DJ now. They’re both so much more to me than just someone I met in SecondLife. So I guess along with my avatar, and my editing skills, my attitude towards SL as a whole. I mean, I always knew there could be more involved it it than just “SL is SL and RL is RL”. I’ve played enough games and been involved in enough online communities to know that anything and everything can become a part of your “RL”. And I’m grateful I DID change. Because both my SL and my RL are vastly better NOW than they were THEN.