She threw a fit.

Well today was a day.

We had a casual truth or dare event going on tonight. People seemed to be enjoying themselves and things were going well. Girls and guests were having a good time and tips were happening and it was nice. One of the newer hires came in and got on stage. She’d mainly only had freelancing experience before, but I’d felt like she could be good once she learned that things are a bit more structured in the club than they are at freelance sims. So then all of a sudden random people start coming in. Some were naked. Some looked like they were just… out of place. It turns on this girl had been using the SIN tracker to “kidnap” people and force TP them into the club. One of the girls that got kidnapped got angry and started endlessly spamming local, during our event, that we were misusing the SIN tracker hud. It took me a minute to figure out what was even going on. It was just suddenly we had this angry girl spamming local and random naked people wandering around. Thankfully two of the managers were on the floor too and we managed to wrangle all the trouble makers and get that sorted.

Then we turned our attention to the girl that had TPed them in. She logged out of her tipjar but was still standing around. One of the managers IMed her and told her that due to her conduct and disrupting the event and business in general, we wanted to put her on a trainee tag for a week so she could get acclimated to how the club was run. The girl ignored this completely. Wouldn’t acknowledge it. Claimed she only saw “blank space” where the message about it was typed. Then she just stopped replying at all. So, I estate TPed her home. And she lost her shit.

Came back into the club and spammed local and our VIP group about how terrible we were and how the managers and I all acted like we were better than everyone, etc. etc.

This is just par for the course in some ways. Every once in a while you get a girl that just causes trouble. But I think this one bothered me so much because I fought so hard to give her a chance because I felt like she could be good. Literally minutes before this I had been telling the managers that I was willing to give her another chance because I felt like she had potential and could be really good. Then she just… flipped her shit on us. The event had been going well and it was a fun time then just…. immediately the mood dropped, of course. Things are back on track now and we’re certainly not going to miss that ridiculousness, but ugh. That was an experience I could have gone without having tonight.


Busting at the seams.

You ever find out about something that pisses you off SO DAMN MUCH, but there’s nothing you can immediately do about it? That’s how I’m feeling right now. Sometimes people seem to think they’re sneaky. Also, they seem to think the world revolves around them.

Well let me tell you something honey. I’ve been doing my shit for years since before I met you, and I can keep my world right on turning without you in it. AaaaaaaaAAAAaaaAhhHHhhhh….

Seriously. I just want to rage the fuck out. But hey, big picture shit. Somethings need to be handled with care and this is just one of them. But it’s so hard to be nice and professional around this person when now I’ve seen their shit first hand. Bitches think they’re being sneaky and shit.


I just want to rant and rave and just scream. To be fair, I probably shouldn’t even be vague-blogging about it, but it’s fucking driving me nuts right now to have to play nice with this person that thinks the sun shines out their ass and more or less implied that I’m useless.


I wanted to post some other shit and pictures from my birthday, but I had to get this out of my system first. I’ll try to write a more coherent and interesting post later instead of this non-specific rage out.


You ever have something that only irritates you a little bit when it happens, but when you think back on it hours later, you get pissed? That’s what’s been happening to me. I’ve just been stewing on a few subjects and it’s just been building to where I just can’t freakin’ stand that sight of someone’s name anymore.

And all the fucking excuses in the world have been used up. At one point does someone say “I am physically, emotionally and mentally unable to do this. So instead of half assing it and then asking other people to help, I’m just going to step down and NOT do it?” That would make too much sense though, right? If there are underlying problems that make it so you really, really CANNOT do something, then don’t accept the responsibilities for it.

I dunno. I’ve just been keeping really busy lately. DJ is busy in RL, and today isn’t feeling well, so the club has been up to me and Ell for the last few days. Combine with taking the pictures of the shoes and listing them on the market, hiring girls, maintaining things and doing my own escorting, I’ve had zero downtime lately. And… I miss him. A lot.

I know he’s got a lot of things going on lately so I’m trying really hard to keep things covered for him and be supportive and help as much as I can, but….I miss him. And through zero fault of his own because of all the external forces going on I feel sort of…neglected? That’s not really the right word. I know it’s not intentional. Or at least, I would hope it isn’t. But it’s definitely felt like all work and no play lately. I’m hoping once things get settled down for him that it can at least get a little bit back to normal. It might take a while, but I’m ok with that as long as I know that he still WANTS it to be back that way. I dunno.

I think I’ve just been stressed and missing him and with the little bit of down time I have to think, my brain will always go to the worst case scenario. That’s normal for me because it’s like I’m….. mentally preparing myself in the back of my mind so that if the worst case actually DOES happen, I’ll have a little bit of a resistance built up to it. That probably sounds crazy, but that’s about where I am right now.

Thankfully even though the club keeps me busy, it’s something I really love doing. It’s a place I love to be and the girls are wonderful. So I’ve got that going for me, which is nice. xD

EDIT: Many hours later….even though he’s sick and sounds so tired, just talking to him for even 30 minutes is enough to make me smile and make me feel better about everything.

I will smack you if I have to.

Ugh, I got kind of mad today. So, one of the girls from the club quit the other day. She told me that she decided she didn’t want to work in an adult club anymore and I said ok, no problem. I let her know that if she ever decided she wanted to come back she was more than welcome to. It’s not her I’m mad at.

Her friend IMed me today and told me that the reason she quit is because this guy that pops in sometimes “adopted” her and told her he wanted her to quit working for us and he’d find her something “with higher pay”.

FIRST OFF. There isn’t going to be something that pays more. Most adult clubs don’t pay at all. We don’t pay much from the poles and the trivia and the sploder, but it’s something. Which is a whole lot more than nothing. As for tips, no matter where you go that’s going to have good days and bad days. Most clubs would require her to rent an adboard, as well as take a higher cut than the 5% we take. Combine those with not getting paid, and you aren’t going to make as much as you do at Babygirls.

Daddy, Ell and I spend a LOT of time, money and effort into making our club a welcoming, safe place for girls to be themselves and have fun. We have far fewer rules than most places. We don’t require you to work as many hours, or rent an adboard. We don’t dictate how you have to look or what your shape needs to be like. We don’t tell you when you have to come in. We want it to be a place you ENJOY going to, as well as one where you can make some money. With the tiny bit we take from the jars and all the incentives we offer, there isn’t going to be a club where she is guaranteed to make more.

As for doing something besides dancing, there isn’t a lot of ways to make good money in SL. Hosts don’t make much, if anything. DJs can kind of make some, but there are a million and one DJs in SL, and some are really quite amazing. Someone starting out isn’t going to do as well. Content creators obviously can make a decent SL living, but only if you’ve got talent and patience. And it’s going to take money to upload the textures or the mesh models or WHATEVER it is you need to create something.

So. Let’s leave the “higher pay” part of this behind because clearly, that’s a load of bull. The part that really annoyed me the most is this is a guy I’ve known for a while. We lost touch, but I’d met him years ago on his old account. And it ANGERED me that he would tell this girl that he would find her someplace better when we put SO MUCH into taking care of our girls and trying to help them out. And I’ll admit, I sort of took it personally even though I know it wasn’t intended to be that way. I actually give a shit about the girls that come to work in the club and I want to see them succeed and enjoy themselves. Which is why if someone wants to quit, I won’t hold it against them. I want them to do what makes them happy. But him making it sound like….I dunno. Like we don’t care or something just pissed me the hell off. And, I left him an offline about it actually. lol. Might not have been the best idea, but I needed to get it off my chest. Which is why I’m even writing about it now. Even though I know I can’t really express in words how it made me feel and WHY it made me feel like that.

Beez In The Trap

This surprisingly sums out how I’m feeling tonight pretty well.

Bitches ain’t shit, and they ain’t sayin’ nuthin’
A hundred muthafuckas can’t tell me nuthin’
I beez in the trap, bee, beez in the trap
I beez in the trap, bee, beez in the trap

Damn, damn what they say about me?
I don’t know man, fuck is on your biscuit?
If I get hits, swinging on a big bitch
I don’t know man, I’m shittin’ on your whole life