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Ugh, I haven’t written in FOREVER. I know. I keep meaning to but then I get easily distracted. Shiny things and all that.

First off, even though this is potentially dangerous cuz well…. there are plenty of people that don’t like me…. Strawberry Singh’s first Monday Meme of the summer is  “Ask Me”. And I’m going to follow her footsteps and make my own Ask.me account, where people can anonymously ask me things. Yikes. Here you go. Have at it.

Let’s see. Things and stuff.

Been remodeling the club and the sim quite a bit. Summer is always a bit slow so it seemed like a good opportunity to try and make some improvements. We moved the DDbg Resort to the same sim, but up in the air. A lot easier to maintain one sim instead of two, and there wasn’t really a NEED for two. So now they’re all set up on the same sim, with the club in one corner and DDbg in the other. Working on setting up a shopping area and probably some skybox rentals in the near future. Things have been going pretty good over all. We’ve got a few FANTASTIC girls really. And I’m so happy and get a bit proud momma bear when I see them chatting with each other, helping one another and just being a TEAM in general. I wanted all the girls to know they had friends and help available with Babygirls and we’re not all out to get one another. I don’t expect everyone to LIKE everyone else. That would just be impossible. But overall, drama is kept to an extreme minimum and I try to deal with it as soon as any crops up.

Things with Daddy are also good. Sometimes he’s too busy to be around much, but he still makes sure to at least take time out to say good morning and good night to me when he isn’t able to log on. Yesterday he was getting ready to go to bed but I was frustrated with some other stuff going on. And he ended up staying up longer just to goof around and make me laugh. And that meant a lot to me. We’ve been partnered now for just over 4 months. Sometimes I still can’t believe it, or how lucky I am to have him in my life. And I’m thankful for him every day.

Of course there are always going to be other things in SL that irk me. That goes without saying. There’s one person who I swear, every word she says, every little thing she does just makes me go UGHHHH. Even if it’s completely harmless. Just because the shit she does/says in general just BUGS THE EVER LOVING FUCK OUT OF ME. If I ever want to feel a complete feeling of rage wash over me for some reason, just looking at anything she does can make that happen. INSTANTLY. Buuuttt, even her nonsense isn’t that big a deal. I mostly can just avoid her and her self centered bullshit.

All things considered, I really can’t complain. I have the club I love. Girls I can trust and have fun with. Daddy who is just…. always one of the best parts of my day.

So. YAY! lol.

I think that’s about enough for now. If you want to ask me random nonsense, and I fully expect some asshole questions, feel free to CLICK THE LINK and go for it. If I get a few questions I’ll do another post with them as well.

What’s your digits? – 2015 Version

It’s time for Strawberry’s What’s Your Digits meme again! I did this a few years ago, but haven’t done it recently. My shape changes now and then, but mostly just the boob size depending on what clothes/hair I want to wear, or what a client requests.

I’m going to cheat a littttle bit though and not give my digits. Sounds like it defeats the purpose right? But I wanted to share some of my thoughts on the mesh bodies and the like that she asks in this year’s edition. Basically, since I wear mesh heads a lot now, if I gave out all my digits anyone could EASILY look just like me. And if you want to be my clone, I want to at least make you work for it a LITTLE bit.

I will say that I am 5’10, including my shoes, in this picture. 😀

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o1.] Do you currently own a mesh body? If so, do you wear it all the time, or just occasionally? If not, skip to question 4. 

Yesss. I have the Wowmeh and the Maitreya. I haven’t used the Wowmeh in…..months. But I wear the Maitreya every day. It only comes off if a client requests something different. I also alternate between a TMP head, and a TSG head.

o2.] What’s your preferred mesh body available on the market right now?

Maitreya! 

o3.] Have you changed your shape since you started wearing the body?

Yup. I made my boobs smaller because I LOVE being able to fit into more mesh clothing now than I could when I had the bigger breasts. Also I used to wear the cute azz, so my avi butt/legs were a bit emaciated looking without it. I had to fill them out to suit the mesh body.

o4.] How do you feel about mesh bodies in general?

Overall, I love them. I adore my Maitreya. I like a lot of things about TMP (but not enough for me to actually BUY it). But I love the smoother lines and the way things look when bending and moving. Plus just the more rounded limbs and less blockiness in general.

o5.] What is the one thing you would request from designers when it comes to mesh bodies?

If mesh heads count, PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THE IS HOLY, TMP NEEDS ALPHA OPTIONS ON THE HEADS. I get SO frustrated with the sheer amount of hairs that I cannot wear on my TMP head because it pokes through.

→ W H A T • I M • W E A R I N G ←

• Shape // My Own

• Body // Maitreya

• Head // TSG – Mimi in Tone D

• Hair // Moon @ Uber

• Eyes // Ikon

• Top // Atomic @ Uber

• Skirt // Atomic @ Uber

• Socks // Muka Knee Highs

• Shoes // The Sugar Garden

Got some catching up to do.

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Been a while since I updated! I even completely missed the Monday Meme so now it’s the…not…Monday Meme. Anyways. It’s a short one anyways, so might as well do it before I get into the other things that have been going on this week! The theme this week was Double Threat!

Two online screen names you’ve had:

I don’t really want to share any of my really old ones. lmao. But as far as SL goes, there’s my current name of Slut Fallen, and my original account which hasn’t even been logged into in ages, Lilysyn Gloom.

Two video games you have played:

Count all 3 Diablos as one I guess. lol. I also spent some time playing the free MMO ASDA with some friends of mine years ago. It’s nothing fancy, but I had a BLAST playing with them so it stands out in my memory.

Two things you love about SL:

Being able to SHOP and dress up as anything I might feel like. And being able to meet people from around the world that I would never have known otherwise.

Two things you’ve done in SecondLife:

Well, currently managing/co-owning/whatever Babygirls, which is by far one of the most enjoyable things I’ve done. And well, I’m an escort so…. once I got paid to have swords thrown at me. That was interesting.

Two things you still want to do in SL:

I’d like to get better at creating things. Maybe try building some more. Annnnd….. I dunno… Maybe give DJing another try one of these days. Though I wasn’t super good at it. lol.

Two things you like about your SecondLife Avatar:

This changes all the time. lol. Currently I am in love with the way my Lara Hurley skin looks on my TMP face, even after I spent months saying I would never use a mesh head. Annnnd I fucking adore having my Maitreya body.

Two of your SecondLife pet peeves:

This one came up a couple times this week. Maybe I’m just old fashioned, but people I DON’T EVEN KNOW asking about my money/DJ’s money/club finances. And I just feel like someone asking someone else about their money is incredibly rude. Also, I hate when I get alpha glitching errors on my mesh body and my tattoo/underwear layer does that disappearing act thing.

Two things you did as a noob that you’re embarrassed about:

I spent my first couple days wearing shoes without the shoe base because I didn’t know I needed to wear that too. Also I remember having to ask someone how to fly up and down because I couldn’t figure it out.

Two of your closest friends in SL:

Ell and DJ. Hands down.

Two of your most beloved things in your inventory:

I don’t think I could pick specific things. Just pictures and NCs of hilarious things that we’ve done in general.

Ok, this entry is already longer than I thought it was going to be, so just a quick overview of the other things that have happened recently. lol.

DJ decided he was going to start making shoes. And he’s been getting better with every shoe line he does. I’ve been enjoying doing the vendor pics for it, and of course testing out the shoes for him! Ell and I told him we fully support this shoe store idea of his. lol. But really, he is definitely getting better. And like I said in my last entry about him, I enjoy watching him get excited about making new things and trying out stuff. He’s always happier when he has some sort of project to work on, and I’m always willing to go along with whatever wackiness he comes up with in that respect. Me getting some awesome shoes out of it is just a bonus. xD

Mean Comments Meme

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This week’s Monday Meme is about Mean Comments. You can see Strawberry Singh’s post about it HERE. Her post goes much more in depth than mine on cyber-bullying as a whole.

o1.] Have you ever been subjected to mean comments online by strangers? If not, skip to #5. 

Oh ABSOLUTELY. It’s a common occurrence. And I’m not just talking about on SL. In other online games, blogs, on different websites. It’s an almost weekly thing sometimes. In SL particularly though I get a lot of things said about me. Whether it’s because I’m an escort or just because I don’t tend to put up with much bullshit. Or because of who I’m dating. Or God knows whatever other reasons. It’s not just from men either. Women sometimes can be more cruel. There’s a million and one rumors going around about me, especially lately with Babygirls starting to get more known.

o2.] How did you respond to them?

This sort of depends on the situation and my mood. Sometimes I just ignore it. Especially if I can tell the person is just trying to get a rise out of me. Sometimes if I’m bored I’ll play along. Like if someone calls me fat I might reply with “OMG THANK YOU FOR TELLING ME I HAD NO IDEA!” or something along those lines. Like, seriously. I know I’m fat. Thanks. It’s not hurtful. lol. But if they persist and I get tired of dealing with them, there’s always the block button.

o3.] How did they make you feel?

Sometimes they’re hurtful. Especially if they come out of no where or you stumble across something when you’re already in a bad mood. Generally though IF they hurt me or insult me it lasts for a little while and then I try to shrug it off. Or laugh it off. Thankfully with Ell and Daddy I can talk to them if something bothers me and they’ll make me laugh in no time.

04.] Can you share some of the mean comments you’ve received and your thoughts on them?

There’s one that happened ages ago but it still sticks out in my memory. A guy I had a bit of a past with has been known to harass me from time to time. Sometimes creating alts in order to reach me when he was blocked. And I remember one time he IMed me out of the blue and all he said was, “Bitch. Why haven’t you killed yourself yet? Don’t you know you’re useless as shit?”  In retrospect it makes me laugh. And it didn’t even hurt me for long. But just getting that IM out of the blue was a bit like a sucker punch.

Here’s a convo from just a couple days ago, with the person’s identity hidden of course:

[00:15] HIM: bcs is impossible try search a logic part on a woman
[00:15] HIM: they only know suck dicks and fcuk like bitches
[00:16] Slut Fallen: Yeah, I’m an AMAZING dick sucker.
[00:16] HIM: ik
[00:16] HIM: u are bich
[00:16] HIM: and fat on rl
[00:16] HIM: 😉
[00:16] Slut Fallen: yep!
[00:16] Slut Fallen: If I sat on you I’d probably break your bones.
[00:16] HIM: ofc
[00:17] HIM: even be far away is can be dangerous
[00:17] HIM: u need a planert for life
[00:17] Slut Fallen: a what?

This happened because one of the girls at the club had complained that he was stalking and harassing her, so I banned him from the sim and refused to let him back in.

o5.] Have you ever ridiculed or negatively commented on someone else’s work, actions or personality with the intention to hurt them?

Yes. There have been times in my life when someone has made me angry or upset me and I wasn’t thinking clearly. I’ve said things intended to make the other person feel bad. Especially if they had made me feel bad first. I’m in no way saying that it’s excusable, I’m just saying that at the time I’ve been emotional enough to rationalize it to myself.

Then & Now

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This week’s Monday Meme from Strawberry Singh is about SL growth… Technically she used images from her first ever blog post, but I didn’t start really blogging much until I’d already been around for a bit. So, this is my first ever SL picture of myself, taken on my rezday in 2009. Compared to the most recent picture of myself that I did this previous week. Since I’d [badly] edited the first. I decided I’d use an edited one for the recent pic as well.

This definitely shows some avi progress as well as editing progress I think. lol. I don’t remember what I even used to edit the first pic. Nothing special, I’m sure. xD I think the difference between the two images is just ridiculous. Some of it is obviously due to advancements in SL as well. Obviously there’s no mesh in the first picture and in the Now pic…well There’s nothing that ISN’T mesh. lol.

When I first started using this account as my main I was in a place where I didn’t want to care about anyone again. I’d been hurt on my original account by someone that wasn’t just a part of my SL, but a part of my life as a whole. And at the time all my friends in world were “our” friends, or my clients. I took an extended break but when I started to miss SL, I decided I was just going to be a slut. Hence, Slut Fallen. I was just going to run around and fuck and get into trouble and not care about anyone, or anything. Oh how that changed. And I don’t regret it at all. I’d be lost without Ell and DJ now. They’re both so much more to me than just someone I met in SecondLife. So I guess along with my avatar, and my editing skills, my attitude towards SL as a whole. I mean, I always knew there could be more involved it it than just “SL is SL and RL is RL”. I’ve played enough games and been involved in enough online communities to know that anything and everything can become a part of your “RL”. And I’m grateful I DID change. Because both my SL and my RL are vastly better NOW than they were THEN.

Have you ever SecondLifed?

If you haven’t heard about Strawberry Singh’s Monday Memes…well, she does Memes on Mondays! *laughs*

I haven’t actually done one of her little blog entry ideas before, but this one looked fun, so I present Strawberry Singh’s – Have you ever SecondLifed? 

1.] Have you ever owned a Sim in SecondLife?
Uhm. No. Not REALLY. Like right now, I don’t own the Babygirls’ sim, but I have access to do anything with it and…well. Basically what DJ has, I have available. So. No I don’t OWN it but I…..something…it?

2.] Have you ever created content in SecondLife?
Yes! Nothing super fancy, but I make pictures and tattoos sometimes. I’ve made a few Slink nails, some gestures and a lounge build that is currently being used by Femboi Fantasies in world. 🙂

3.] Have you ever driven a vehicle in SecondLife?
YES! And crashed every single one of them. From cars, to TukTuks. Stealth Bombers and a go-karts and scooters and more. I’m actually better at flying then driving, but that isn’t really saying much of anything.

4.] Have you ever gone sky diving in Second Life? 
Yes! Once or twice with Ell and Matt. 

5.] Have you ever played a sport in Second Life?
Nope!

6.] Have you ever gone clubbing in SecondLife?
I live in clubs. Pretty much literally. I mean, one of my skyboxes is on the Babygirls Escorts sim anyways. 

7.] Have you ever fangirled/fanboyed someone in Second Life? 
Uh, a little. I mean I’ve seen designers or bloggers out and about before and thought to myself “OMG THATS __________” but I’ve never actually managed to make myself say hi.

8.] Have you ever taken a picture of your avatar in water in SecondLife?
Yes.

9.] Have you ever taken a picture of a sunset in SecondLife?
Yes.

1o.] Have you ever taken a nude picture of yourself in SecondLife?
God, for a while there it would have been a better question to ask if I’d taken a CLOTHED picture in SecondLife.

11.] Have you ever dated in SecondLife?
Yes. I dated someone on my first SL account. When we split I left that account as well because all the friends I had on it were mostly HIS friends. Then I changed to my current account as my main. On THIS account I’ve had numerous guys interested in me and a few like…go hang out somewhere dates. But I’ve been partnered once as Slut Fallen and that was with Kovu. And now I’m…well. Off the market again, even if not partnered. Yet. Soon though maybe? I hope? Anyways.

12.] Have you ever had, or attended, a wedding in SecondLife?
I have attended a couple. One or two for a close friend and one or two as just a generic guest for people I SL work with. 

I haven’t HAD one though. I go back and forth between wanting to have one sometime. On one hand I think they’re kinda silly. But on the other, I’d love making a pretty venue and getting dressed up and having a big ridiculous party with all my/our friends. So. I dunno. Kovu gave me a pretty ring when he asked me to partner him, and I DID like that. I guess a SL “proposal” and “wedding” does sound super cute and romantic but I dunno. lol. I

13.] Have you ever engaged in sexual activity in SecondLife?
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
yes.

14.] Have you ever been to Bukkake Bliss in SecondLife?
 yes actually! I knew a guy that was friends with the owner and apparently had one of the stone lions there named after him when he helped out with their tier when they were starting out. I don’t know if that’s true, but he never really lied to me or had a reason to, so it’s probably true. I went there not long ago just to look around because I forgot it still existed. It hasn’t changed  bit.